March
March
Hey guys remember how I said that I wanted
a flip phone
to reduce my distractions on my phone? Yeah I wanna talk more about
it
I finally gathered up the courage to delete BOTH instagram AND
twitter (and other apps too but I forgot what else I deleted). Other
than that, I have been monitoring my screentime both on my phone &
iPad. Seeing the screentime going up to 1hr now makes me feel... uh
what's the word.. um.. bad? guilty? um, basically makes me want to
put my gadgets down and do something else. It's like my phone
telling me "ooh look at that, you spent TOO much TIME on your phone.
Ya
LOSER
"
N...NOO!!! I..!! I'm not [sniff] A LOSER :((!!! WAAAAAAAHH!!!
Uh, yeah, anyways, with instagram, twitter, and other
doomscrolling-worthy apps gone from my phone, I have NO idea what to
do in my free time. It sounds pathetic tbh... cuz I didn't have any
of those back then. Heck, I wasn't allowed to be on any gadget for a
long time and yet, I could entertain myself for a whole day without
them. So, I thought about what I did to keep myself busy. Maybe...
daydreaming! But these past few days have been kinda... sad for me
so the daydreams have been either dry, or making me even sadder (is
that even a word..?) IT'S SO SAD THOUGH ARRGGHH I WANNA THINK ABOUT
MY OCS TO MAKE ME HAPPY BUT I ENDED UP BEING SAD :(. Ok, so other
than daydream, what else? Drawing!! BUT GUESS WHAT.... I HAD
ARTBLOCK....
WHAT DO I DO....
A voice echoed in my head
R e a d.. a... b o o k..! y o u... l o s e r...!!!!
I... um... read a book..? yeah uh, why didn't I think of that
hahahahah....
....
Reading random books like watching random, um, reels,, isn't that
easy for me. Idk, maybe because I'm picky, or scared, or lazy, or
something. I mean, I've read Warrior Cats... yeah...
Ok, this time I will actually TRY to read books. YEAH!! It would
make me so smart! you're not gonna know WHAT hit ya... yeah...
I talked about this with my friend and she told me to get a goodreads account. Y'know for fun. And I did. I haven't done much yet cuz I haven't.. read much books... so I asked my mum for some recommendations of books she still have that I could read. She told me to read her chicklit books and the ones that I saw was the Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella. I don't think I've ever tried reading chicklit before... I wonder what this'll be like...
It's kind of.. exciting though, deleting insta and twt, reading a
book, reading a NEW GENRE of books. Maybe because it's new to me, in
a way. I hope I'll have more fun doing all of this than what I did
back then
I'm gonna try to write this blog as fast as I can because I actually
still have homeworks to do but I REALLY wanna talk about this thing
before I forget about it
um,, so please excuse the typos and grammar mistakes,,
OK SO. I've just finished watching those episodes. It's called
Equinox, a two part(?) episode (is that how to call it..?). What
happens basically is that Voyager found out that there's another
Starfleet vessel in the Delta Quadrant! Crazy right! Everybody
thought that voyager's the only Starfleet vessel there. But when
they found them, Equinox (the name of the vessel) was heavily
damaged because of alien attacks. Their ship was so damaged bro,
it was so dark, I had to keep increasing my brightness everytime
there's a scene there
.
Anyway, so, they beamed the people left that was alive on that
ship and try to protect them from the alien attacks and also
trying to fix their ship while they're at it.
The Equinox, ya see, wasn't a ship that's as good as Voyager. It
basically, wasn't made to fly(?) go on that long, and uh, it's
just for research or.. something like that I FORGOR...... While
Janeway awas visiting Equinox, she saw like the... Equinox
plaque(??) thingy??? the thing that's like?? the title? of the
ship? dude what do u call that. Erm, basically she decided like
"a sign of good fortune... let's put it back up where it
belongs"
FAST FORWARD.. Captain Janeway (The captain in Voyager) realised
that the reason they managed to go as far as Voyager is into the
Delta Quadrant despite it being a lesser... vessel.... is
because they were using the aliens that were attacking them as a
source of power for their engines to get home faster. THEY WERE
USING INNOCENT LIFE FORMS TO GET HOME FASTER BRO...
Janeway was clearly pissed (I mean, tbh, I would be too). A
Starfleet captain literally breaking the Prime Directive just
like that? THAT'S CRAZY. Captain Ransom (The Captain of Equinox)
said he had no choice, since they were starving and the ship was
broken or somthing I kinda forgot. And I was like "???? You sure
you had no choice??"
Janeway tried to stop Ransom and his crew from further harming
the aliens by confining them to quarters. She asked the EMH
(Emergency Medical Hologram) doctor to check... something.. like
files of what the equinox crew knew about the aliens. there, the
doctor encountered another EMH, the one that belongs to Equinox.
TURNS OUT.. HIS ETHICAL SUBROUTINES WERE DELETED SO EQUINOX EMH
BASICALLY JUST.. TOOK VOYAGER EMH'S MOBILE EMITTER AND JUST WENT
TO VOYAGER. WHY WOULD YOU HURT THE DOCTOR :((( I LIKE THAT GUY.
EEMH(I'm gonna call Equinox's emh that now, voyager's will be
vemh) went on voyager and freed equinox crew and they flew
away.... with VEMH and Seven of nine(??) there (gotta be hones i
don't remember when she went on equinox I think I wasn't paying
attention.)
OK SO THE THINH I WANTED TO YAP ABT WAS THAT..
How Janeway as soooo pissed of Ransom for ignoring the prime
directive that SHE FOUGHT WITH CHAKOTAY??? NOOOOOOO WY ARE YOU
GUYS FIGHTING I DON'T LIKE THISSS [Insert the "divorce leads
children to the worst places" meme]. They fought abput how
Janeway was going too far, wanting to harm Ransom's crew just to
get to equinox and how Chakotay doesn't wanna do that. Now
Janeway's off to bring Equinox to the aliens.. for justice or
something i guess (the aliens are gonna DESTROY equinox and the
crew BRO).
AT THE END... Ransom's first officer, Max decided to keep on
killing the aliens for fuel and Ransom FINALLY decided that it's
actually wrong. wow guys he finally did it....
Max formed a mutity against Ransom and Equinox n Voyager
exchanged fire, ending at Equinox being super heavily damaged
(lmao) and venting plasma (that's when you can see it's REALLY
bad). Ransom, and one other crew (I forgot her name) talked to
voyager from equinox saying they he actually wanted to stop, and
he wated to beam ppl off equinox or smth. Janeway, after all
that, decided something along the lines of "OK... I'll beam ur
crew and u off the ship before equnox dies" I FORGOT AGAIN...
Max, and some of the crew who agreed with him, realised that
Ransom was trying to get to voyager, so Max ordered the crew to
get to the shuttles because they rather die than be held for
their crimes I guess. but the aliens... um.. klled max and the
others, while some other.. innocent(?) crewmen managed to get
beamed onto voyager.
All that's left on the ship was Ransom. It was hard to get a
lock on him so they couldn'y beam him up. BUT THE SHIP WAS ABOUT
TO EXPLODE.... WHAT... WHY WOULD HE DO THAT...
THE SHIP
DID
END UP EXPLODING...... WHAT THE
HELL............................................. whh....why did
he.... dothat..... wwewhhaattt
At the end of the episode..... now ppl are trying to tidy up and
make repairs on Voyager after all that's happened. Chakotay and
Janeway had a lil talk I guess.... ueueue.... why did u
fight......... AND THEN. while they were talking, Chakotay saw
Voyager's plaque on the ground. man, after all the fights and
troubles they went through before equinox, that thing has never
fell to the ground. and then Chakotay's like "Let's put it back
up where it belongs"
HERE. RIGHT THERE.
I said as I paused the episode and pointed on the plaque
with a laser pointer
, I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S SUPPOSED TO SYMBOLISE SMTH. LIKE...
LIKE how captain Ransom's... ethics...? were gone, using aliens
for fuel, and the plaque fell, but when Janeway put it back up,
he realised (alsthough it took a while for him to do that) that
it's actually a bad thing to do. AND IN JANEWAY'S... the plaque
fell when she was so obssesed with getting Ransom and the crew
for what they did, that she would actually
harm
one of the crew members for answers. IT'S LIKE.... LIKE THEIR...
ETHICS??? FELL WHEN THE PLAQUE FELL GUYS. DO YYOU GUYS SEE IT.
DO YALL UN DERSTA ND.......
Ok that took longer than I thought... erm... yeah ok bye.. thank u fro reading my Star Trek yap..
Would it sound crazy to yall that I am missing my friends so much
rn. I miss them so much to the point where I dreamt about hanging
out with them... (or going to school again?? i kinda forgor
). AND THEN WHEN I WOKE UP... I felt so sad and dissapointed :(( I
lowkey wanted to skip colleg today just because of that lmao...
....................
IT'S NOT REALLY A LMAO MOMENT FOR ME THOUGH,, AAARRGHHH
idk man.. I'm supposed to be doing other things like studying or, I guess , um gaming or literally whatever. But I spent my time crying about them man whadahell...
OH and in the topic of.. distracting myself... I've been wanting to literally delete instagram from my phone (and life). That app and its reels are too distracting but in a way that I don't even like. At least I enjoy gaming or drawing, but reels is kinda like a gacha for content. gambling(??) In a way I guess. gambling to make time go faster for some people, or make them happy, or just turn off their brain. But y'know, thinking about it, isn't sleeping the actual time for your brain to turn off?? idk guys. I just really dislike this feature, and tiktok, and YouTube shorts... basically the gacha content feature. At least you get to actually choose what video you wanna see on YouTube,, In reels they just slam you with content they think you like. OH and the comments on mainstream social media is makin my head hurt too like calm down yall.
I should.. probably delete twitter too, right? That app is like, the toxic/discourse/controversial/whatever happens there app ever, right? Well twt is somehow?? safe for me? I feel safer being in twt than instagram. All I do there is just look at pictures I like, with occasional vids. And I feel like?? I can control myself there better, looking at pics, than being in Instagram reels, looking at... whatever stuff they give me.
I also watched a
video
on YouTube about using a dumbphone for everyday life instead of a
smartphone by
Luvstarkei
. It seemed like such an awesome idea for me, right. I can tone down
the amount of distractions I have by just having a dumbphone with
just the essential stuff. But idk.. there's a lot of stuff that made
reconsider getting one. Like the fact that buying a phone could cost
a lot, my college stuff is basically on my phone, .... and my games
too..., and throwing away a
smart
phone my parents gave me just like that feels like such a waste. So,
I decided, I'll just delete the annoying n distracting apps on my
phone instead
yeahyeahh. I could make way for more pictures and memories too that
way :3
....
........
WAAAAGHHHH I MISS MY FRIEENNDSSSS
hm, I think that's all I could yap about today. ok bye I wanna eat
Gooooodd morning evernyan!! (It's night right now)
I wanted to write something for my blog journal thing because I FEEL
like I wanna like.. talk or yap about a LOT of things but everytime
I actually sit down to start writing, my brain just went blank...
So.. uhm... we'll see where this one goes.
Today and yesterday felt so confusing and messy. I woke up early
right, to study!! to be productive! but fell asleep and woke up at a
time that's like... sooo much later than what I wanted.
Like, uh, I woke up at 2.30-ish to study yesterday (probably a
bit
too early but... whatever..). and while I did... stay up for a bit,
I fell asleep and woke up at ELEVEN.......
I even put up like... a
lot
of alarms at 8-9 just in case, but I still didn't wake up
crazy....
And TODAY. I just got home from class and I decided I would lay on
my bed for five minutes before doing any studying or whatever.
Actually it wasn't even five minutes..... I set a timer for four
minutes and fifty nine seconds cuz I thought it'd be funny. I fell
asleep at like..? three? I think? and woke up at SEVEN.... I forgot
what happened, why I was here, it was confusing lmaoaoao
This silly problem is kind of starting to get bigger though,, since I'm uh.. lowkey kind of behind in some... classes... and reallllyy need to catch up before tests comes up. It's like... I need to lock in..
I have been saying that I have to lock in since the begining of
march but I still haven't been doing a good job on it
IT'S OK!!! I still have three(?) weeks left of march!! there's
still!! hope
!!!!!
Oh my GOD I finally changed my layout... Y'know... gotta be honest... I didn't really like the og one... and I've been wanting to do something like neapolitan theme at some point.
I don't really know what to ramble about right now. I've got like, homeworks I'm supposed to do but don't really... wanna...
I've been daydreaming a lot about my OCs (shocking) oh my god I miss them so much waagghh!! I couldn't figure out a way to continue their story BUT NOW I DO :DD!! yippiii
